What Goes Up, Must Come Down

Every day we make millions of decisions. We think about what we are going to wear, who we are going to talk to, how we are going to act, and if we are going to live each day with meaning. I look at my life and I wonder how I am living. I look left and see success and I look right and I see suffering. How can we live in such a world that we project success and glamour to all but in the bag we have baggage, pain and suffering? I think that it all has to do with our daily decision to follow something bigger then ourselves.

We look at so many celebrities and people in our lives who have gone through a lot and we can’t help but point out there flaws and say that they deserved what happened to them and that we would never make the same mistakes that they have. We are so quick to judge others and so quick to put ourselves in a state of superiority. We look at the world around us and say that we are better than the sin, shame, and filth that surrounds us every day, when, if we are honest with ourselves, we are holding things in that we hope no one will find or see. We look at prostitution, murder, and addiction and say that we know better than to do those things, but every day we struggle with lust, anger, and envy. How do we fight this? How do we be honest with ourselves about our struggles while also not acting that we are superior? The answer is having a relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

A pastor a long time ago told me something about sin that has stuck with me my entire life since. He told me that in the eyes of the world we rank sin on a scale. We say that it is ok to lust a little because it’s not like I’m sleeping around with random women or its ok to get angry every once in a while because I would never go murder someone. But God views our sin drastically different. He used an analogy of sin as a check mark with chalk on a big board. He doesn’t look at the individual sin itself and judge us by our failures but he looks at each sin as a mark and that a sin is the same regardless of what it is. This has been so eye opening to me because it causes me to not go out and judge others based on what they have done because I am no better than them regardless of what they have gone through. Everyone has gone through experiences that they regret and wish they wouldn’t have experienced and they don’t need another person telling them how messed up they are and how bad they have messed up.

This is so challenging though and is something that I struggle with daily. I look at family members and friends and judge them based on their experiences rather than looking at how far they have come. When we begin to look through others in that lens we can begin to see how amazing and impactful everyone story is. It doesn’t matter if you have been raised in a family that went to church every day or not at all, once you come to faith you have a beautiful story of redemption that is only possible through the blood of Jesus Christ. We are not here because of our works but only by God’s work on the Cross. When we look at this we can see that no matter what we have gone through in the past we can use to bring others to Jesus Christ because I can almost guarantee that someone in either your friend group or community is struggling or has struggled with the same thing that you have. When we learn to give our lives to God every day we learn that our sin that used to push us to put on masks and hide the truth can be turned to allow us to share and be open about our faith.

It took me 19 plus years to figure this out. So much of my life, I have kept so much suppressed within myself for many reasons. I felt that I didn’t need to burden others with my problems or they wouldn’t understand because they aren’t going through the same thing as I am. But over the last 2 years, God has blown those ideas out of my mind. He has showed me that if I am willing to take a leap of faith and say that I am a sinner and that I have struggled with lust, lack of confidence and shame that he will bring people into my life that will either help me break free from these things or help me have health conversations about struggles in our own lives. I was lying to myself for so long that I was superior to others and that I was not committing this sin or that that I was a “Good” Christian, when in actuality there is no such thing as a “Good” Christian, there are only “work-in-progress” Christians. The second that you think they you have everything figured out you have reminded yourself how much you need Jesus Christ. Our work on earth is only completed upon arriving in heaven. We are never to act as if we have it all figured out because we will never help others through their problems. Just be real for a second and think about how you came to faith. I can guess in most cases it wasn’t something that someone forced down your throat and said if you don’t follow this you are going to burn in Hell and that you are the worst person ever. But instead you were coddled by someone who truly loves and cares about you and walked alongside you through your times of questioning and lack of faith. We must take this same approach to those around us. If we look at others with hatred we are only pushing a relationship with God farther away from them. I wouldn’t want to be a part of a faith or religion that says that judging others is how we bring people to faith. The only true healer is Jesus Christ. He is the only one who can break chains that rehab and counseling can’t break. He is the only one who has and ever will know what true agape love is. We must try our best to follow in his footsteps. If we are not loving as he has first loved us, how do we expect to show those around us what true freedom and joy looks like?

It is the cry of my heart that today we will begin to love more than ever because our world needs it more than ever. God has given us all a perfect opportunity to show the world what true love is as long as we are willing to trust him. Our world is so broken and everyday people are leaving there faith to pursue earthly desires that will eventually fade away. What if today, we stood up for our proclamation of faith and say that instead of turning our back on those who have made mistakes or who are considered untouchables to come to faith, we look to love them and let God work through us. Think about those people in your life that you could never see coming to faith, why not let God use you as a vessel. It might take years but wont in be worth it when we sit in heaven and are able to worship our Lord and savior together with those who we thought had no hope.

If Jesus would have lived his life the way that many of us do today, including myself, I can easily say we would not have the 12 disciples and his ministry would have looked a lot differently. Jesus surrounded himself with broken flawed humans who he knew were going to let him down but he looked past those faults because he saw the impact that they were going to have on our world. He saw the billions of people that would come to faith through the churches that they would plant and said that it was worth being betrayed and hung on the cross because some day we will sit in heaven together and worship the same God forever. How beautiful is that!

My Prayer:

Dear Lord,

I am flawed and broken and I need you. Today I rise and chose to follow you because of what You accomplished on the cross. I know that this isn’t the life that the world wants me to follow but I know that earthly things shall fade and you will be the only thing that stands firm. I ask that your hand of forgiveness falls on me today because I am broken without you. Help me to view my sin as an opportunity to help someone who needs you. I am nothing without you so help me to view others as equal to me and that as long as I have you anything is possible with Christ. Make me a light for change in this dark world. Help me to love the least of these and those we have labeled as untouchable. Nothing is impossible through you Lord and I pray that I hold that near and dear to my heart because that can have eternal implications. You are good Lord and your love and mercy is so powerful. I love you will all that I am. In your holy name I pray,

Amen.

The End is Near

Four years ago, I began a journey that in three months will be over. These has been the most challenging but greatest years of my life. The Lord has taught me so many things and stretched me in so many ways and its only fair if I share the things that He has taught me.

God’s Plans > My Plans

Coming into Bethel I had so many great dreams and aspirations. These dreams include finding the women of my dreams, getting married, working hard to get a great job, expanding my faith, turning from my sin, meeting new people, and make an impact in the live’s of those around me. I can say with confidence that I have accomplished a lot of these things but not in the ways that I had originally thought i would. Entering Bethel, I was very focused on achieving these things for myself and I put God on the back burner. Through trials, God has shown me that putting him at the front helps every choice we make flourish. Some of the most profound and powerful experience’s that i have been apart of at Bethel all started because I asked for his help. I can safely say that I would have never in my wildest dreams been a freshman RA, spoken in chapel, been a shift leader, read my bible daily, and so many more things without the Lord’s prompting. I am not saying this to put myself up, I am saying this because we all need to do this, including myself. I came into Bethel with the perspective that I need to go to chapel and be in bible studies for myself while at the same time I wasn’t  working on my sins behind closed doors. This brought a lot of pain and deception to take place within my life. I truly believe that who you are when no one is looking shows the character of your heart. With that said I was not very happy with myself because I appeared that i had everything together for so long, but inside I was hurting so bad. I struggled with lack of self-confidence, lust, and so many other things and it wasn’t until I felt God’s prompting, through close friends, to join the shift ministry that chains began to be broken. For the first time I found out what true vulnerability and accountability looked like. I learned that I wasn’t alone in my pain and struggles. I learned that God was right along side me each and everyday. What I want people to know is that God loves you more then you can ever try to fathom. He wants what is best for you, if you are willing to listen and trust him. There will be struggle but God’s plan will make you more happy then you can ever possibly imagine. i promise you this because my life and who I am today is a walking testimony of these ideas and I thank the Lord for that.

 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?  Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?  So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’  For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.  But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.  Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

Matthew 6:25-34

God Loves Us So Much

Something that I feel that God has shown me over and over again is that He loves me. I know that sounds so basic but to me it is so profound. As I stated before I used to struggle with self-confidence. This lead me to walk around with my head hung low and feel lonely very easily. As i began to read the bible more and more, I found out how much God loves and cares for each of us. I found how much he longed for us to draw near to him above all else and that he was right there always. When I began to see this, I found my head hanging a little higher and I had a new perspective on life. I didn’t look for approval or rejection from others. I found my strength in Christ alone, It allowed me to have confidence in the man of God that I am today. I thank the Lord every day for this because It changed the trajectory of my life. It has shown me how God wants to use me moving forward and how others need to know how loved they truly are. My goal each and everyday is to walk around with a smile on my face and joy in my heart because that might be all it takes to make someones day. The littlest things can go the longest way. What if everyone at Bethel knew how loved they were. What if instead of getting so upset at the littlest things such as the food in the DC, the printers not working, having to much homework, etc. We began to be happy that we are even here and that God is preparing us for tomorrow each and every day. We must not look past these few short years at Bethel and say that this is all about our future. There are so many broken people around us who just want a hug and who just want someone to talk to. What if we became a community where everyone felt loved. As I leave Bethel, this is the dream that i hope that i can continue to maintain. That every person that I come in to contact with will not see me for the negativity that I could be complaining about, but instead sees the love that God has poured into me first. All glory goes to Him and I pray we put our lives in perspective. If you think you have it bad, I guarantee someone has it worse. God loves you for who you are, not for who you want to be.

” Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”

Hebrews 4:16

Leaving College Single Is Ok

This might be the one that has been the hardest for me. I have felt pressure from so many people, including myself, through out my time at Bethel to find the women of my dreams. First of all, I think that there are very few better places to meet your future spouse then at a christian university such as Bethel. Daily I come in contact with so many beautiful women of God who love the Lord so much. This is beautiful but It can be so hard. For so long I had the false idea that if I leave Bethel without someone there must be something wrong with me. If I can’t find a women at a christian university, are my standards to high? Am i weird? There must be something wrong with me. But news flash, its okay to be single and there is so much freedom and growth that can only come through singleness. Don’t get my wrong, i desire more then anything to find a women that I can spend the rest of my life with, but that is on God’s time. Until that day comes all i can do is praise God and show others the love He first showed me. For everyone who is reading this, I pray that you don’t settle for someone just because you have to. God is all you will ever need and we must find him first. I can’t wait for the day that I get to watch my wife walking down the aisle toward me, but until that day comes, I must look upwards to the God who created me and seek him. What if we all lived this way? What if instead of being so focused on finding our spouse, we found others who wanted to find God. Along the way, those friendships might turn into romantic relationships but imagine the spiritual growth that would take place. Bethel is full of people who desire to know God more and I think we need to embrace this more. I know I need to and as I am leaving Bethel I hope that I can always ask people about their faith and how I can pray for them. I want this because its the only thing that really matters in life.

“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

I Corinthians 13:4-7

The Importance of Community

I want to end with this thought. In a few years when we are out of Bethel and busy with life, we will look at the community of Bethel and remember those days were there was always someone there for you. We will remember those nights at Vespers where we cried our eyes out. We will remember the endless conversations and people who we haven’t talked to since we graduated. While the faces might change, community itself is the most important thing in each of our lives. We must have people around us to support and care for us. This might be through your family, church, or friends. Without a community we aren’t able to glorify God to the fullest. We aren’t able to love others and we aren’t able to be vulnerable and promote accountability. Bethel has shown me all of these things and more through the community and has put people in my life that I know are going to be there for me tomorrow and forevermore. While we will miss this community, there will be more intimate communities that will come our ways. God uses communities to teach us and we must be actively seeking them.

The Lord has changed me in so many ways over my time at Bethel. He has shown me how to love and be loved. He has taught me how to worship and find where my true worth comes from. I couldn’t thank him enough for the countless people he has brought into my life and i pray that I don’t get so caught up in leaving this place that I miss these last few months and the people that I can meet and grow with. We all were brought to Bethel for a reason. It might be to confront a sin, meet your spouse, become a christian, find out what love is, and so many other things. It is the cry of my heart that we will embrace this community while we still can so that we can find what God wants for us through this community. God doesn’t want the leftovers of our lives, he wants the whole things. What is holding you back from giving it all to Him?

To all who read this I hope you know that you are loved more then words can express. I pray that you know that you are special and that God has brought you to where you are today for a purpose. If you trust him, he will come through. You can take that to the bank.

The Missing Ingredient

Growing up, one of my favorite desserts was pumpkin pie. Every Thanksgiving I would await the moment when we would head over to my grandparents house to enjoy my grandmas special pumpkin pie. It was always the same and it always was the perfect way to end our Thanksgiving meal. One year, we had just finished our dinner and dessert was upon us. I remember speeding through the mounds of mashed potatoes and turkey because I knew what was awaiting me. Finally in front of me sat my first of many pieces of pumpkin pie. I jammed my fork into the pie and took a huge bite. Instantly that same bite was spit back on my plate. I remember the whole table staring at me in shock because they knew that I loved her pie. My grandma asked me what was wrong. I told her, “I think you forgot an ingredient.” Confused she took a nibble of her own pie and knew exactly what was missing. The sugar. To this day we still laugh and joke about this moment and I never look at pumpkin pie the same.

Everyday we are presented with situations where, from the outside, everything looks okay. Whether that be our relationships, finances, or spirituality, we put up wall  that tell the world that everything is okay. Deep down though we know that there is something missing and are just waiting for someone to call us out and ask us whats going on. So what is missing? What is the missing ingredient in our lives?

Love is that answer.

When we truly learn what love is we can truly learn how to break down the walls in our own lives which will allows us to speak into the lives of those that are around us that need to be loved.

So what is love?

Coming from a biblical perspective. Love is the most important thing in our world.

In Matthew, it states that we must, ” Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.” (Matthew 22:36-40).

Jesus Christ paints the purest picture we have of what it looks like to love. From the way that he treated others to the way that he died. His mission was to make sure that EVERYONE was loved and knew it. Time and time again throughout the Bible, you find scripture showing us a scene of Jesus with the least of these. He could have gone about his life comfortably and told the rich to tithe and focus on them but he knew the power that comes from those who have little. When you look at the twelve disciples they span all types of occupations and lifestyles. They weren’t twelve people who had life altogether and holy. They were messed up people. This is a common theme throughout all of scripture. God uses average and regular messed up people to do extraordinary things. The common theme we find throughout scripture is these people pointing it all back to God and showing there love to him and him alone first. They didn’t always have the answers and didn’t always know what was going to happen, but they knew that God first loved them, everything was going to be Okay.

It is all cultivated at the crucifixion of Jesus Christ. The ultimate sacrifice. The Lord could have left earth a million other ways but he purposely choice the most violent and gruesome death to paint this picture of his love for us. As it says in John, “ For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (3:16).

When we really take a moment and think back at how much God truly loves us, it should open our eyes to many things. It should show us that the only reason that we are here is because of what he did for us first on the cross and the only hope that we have lies in him. It also should show us how much God loves each and everyone of us. No matter what you have done, what you have been through, or how hurt you feel. GOD LOVES YOU. It is the cry of his heart to make sure that we all know that.

When we realize that God loves each and everyone of us, we can find our strength in him. When the world around us is falling apart and we feel that no one is there to catch up, God is there. You can open up your Bible and read passages such as…

Philippians 4:13

“I can do all things through him who gives me strength.”

Isaiah 40:31

“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles: They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

I can go on, but I have more to say.
Another valuable things that God has been teaching me is through the power of prayer. Prayer is one way that God has poured love upon me. He has renew the Holy Spirit within me, time and time again. This would have never happened if I just sat around and waited for something to change. Asking God for help through prayer is only half of the fight. We must go out and seek him in the process. Praying is a great way to allow God to speak to us and today we suck at praying. I will find thirty other things to do before I pray. We need to change this because this is important to allow God to use us and speak to us.

God’s Love is free and available to everyone. It isn’t calling us to be sinless because that is unattainable and will never happen. We are flawed deprived human’s and if we could refrain from sinning we would have no need for a Savior.  So come as you are and just tell Him how you love Him and that you want to pursue Him and He will change your live. I promise.

My goal in writing this is to affirm you that God loves you so much more then we can ever comprehend.

I also want to say that God isn’t looking for perfection from you. He knows our sins and our struggles and if we are willing to trust in him he will guide you farther then you could think you could ever go. It might get harder at first, but in the long run God’s plan only brings love and the fruit of the spirit within you and those around you.

My challenge for anyone reading this is that when things get hard in our lives and we don’t feel as if we have anyone to turn to. Take a second and pray to the God who loves you so much. He will rescue you and show you away out of any situation. He loves you and wants to see his children smile.

Our relationship with God is the most important thing in this life. It is the missing ingredient in all of our lives because no one is perfect at it. We will never know the depths of his love until we see him face to face and he shows us. But until that day we can hold on to his promise that he is going to love us through our imperfections. Give him a chance today and he will open your eyes to something if you let him.
If you don’t believe me. I can give you story after story of how God has worked in my life and those around me because I asked for help and his guidance. I don’t say that because I have everything figured out, I say it because its the truth and I want to share his love to everyone i can because its so important to me.

Here is my prayer today,

Dear Lord,

Thank you for your love and for your grace. I pray that we become people who desire you more each and every day. Show us your love today and lead us when we feel that we have no hope. You are all we truly need. We might not always believe it, but it is true. Give us the strength to make it through today. Lord, I pray that we look to you in times of trouble and in times of blessing. God you are good and you will never fail us. Help us to try and put you first and let you work in our lives when we would usually fail by ourselves. Thank you for your son. We love you.

Amen

Why Do I Pray?

For the longest time growing up, I prayed because I was told that is how you get what you want and that is how we talk to God. I diminished that second part and focused on the aspect of getting what I want out of my prayer life. After 21 years of life, I have started to realized that it is truly the opposite. I know have started to learn that I want to pray and that I want to wake up every morning and pray and worship my God because I can and because I want to get to know my Lord and savior more and more everyday.

When we look at our relationship with God as a relationship, this starts to change the way that we interact with him. Put this in earthly terms. You wouldn’t get married to someone and only talk to them to get what you want, you talk to them because you love them and want to get to know them more and more. This is how we should treat our relationship to God and specifically in our prayer life.

Matthew 6:7 says, “And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words.”

God already knows what we need and desire. Why do we treat Him as if he is clueless? Of course we must ask and join into a relationship with God but we must not dwell on what we need over and over again because God already knows our heart.

Lets get practical, One of the most profound ways that I have started to feel more connected to God is by giving him time to respond. When I used to pray, it was all about me talking and going and no listening. As I have grown, I have begun to give him time to intercede and talk back and I have been blessed beyond my wildest dreams. He has pushed me to do things that I would have never thought i could do and showed me verses that have greatly impacted me.

The most reason encounter that I had with God was him putting 1 John 4:13-21 which states,

 By this we know that we abide in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.  By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us.  If anyone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother.”

When God showed me this, i was going through a time where i was thinking a lot about my identity in Christ and what love is and this verse spoke to me in so many ways.

I challenge anyone who is reading this to just spend 5 minutes each day letting God speak to you and I promise you that he will come through and show you the true desires of his heart for you.

My prayer today:

Dear Lord,

Thank you for all the things you are. Thank you for first loving us, so that we can go and love others. I pray that we seek you and your kingdom more each and everyday. Give us ears to hear and hearts to see your vision for our life. We daily think that we know what is truly best for us but most of the time that isnt the truth. Today I pray that you will intercede in our life and show us the true desire you have for us. Help us to take time and give you time to speak and daily meditate on your word. I can’t thank you enough for the things you have done in my life and I owe my life to you. God you are good. We love you. May your kingdom fill this earth. In your name we pray,

Amen

To My Future Wife

Dear Future Wife,

I hope all is well with you, I am writing you this letter to let you know that I am thinking about you. I am also writing this to tell you a few things that have been on my heart lately. The first thing that i want to say is that you will never be number one in my life. I know that sounds bad but let me explain. Something that the past few years has taught me is that God comes first. As hard as its going to be, i vow that my relationship with God will be the most important thing to me and that my decisions and life reflects that. I want you to love me first and for most because of the strong desire that i have to pursue Jesus with my life. I wouldn’t ask for something from you that i didn’t want for myself also. It is my ultimate desire that you look to and pursue God above all things and that my eyes are not focused only on your beauty but on God’s promises and plans for you. If i’m going to be honest that is the most attractive trait that any women can have and that is what I will see in you.

The next thing that i want to tell you is that I am going to hurt you. I know that the first time that we look at each other deeply we will only see love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). But give it some time and we will hurt each other. Sometimes it might even be hard to talk to one another. But this is the beauty of love. Love is not a light switch that can be turned on or off. Love is a choice that we make each and everyday. When the day comes where i stand in front of you at the alter, I am sealing my vows to you that no matter what lies ahead I will make the choice everyday to love you more and more everyday. There will be days were you want to throw me off a cliff and there will be days where I just want to tell you to be quiet, but that is the beauty of love that we will work through those days and only love each other more and more. One thing that the Lord has been teaching me can be found in 1 Corinthians 13. What is says is, “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. i could spend an hour picking that apart and saying how each of those things have made me realize what i want for myself in a future wife but more importantly how i want my wife to view me. In perspective though, the love I have for you is only possible because of the love that God has first shown me. So with that i must turn to him and make these same vows and remember how in my failure, shame, and distress. He who loves me more then anyone else has already loved me in a way superior to any love that I know exists (Agape love).

Continuing on, the next thing that I want to tell you is that loving someone takes faith. Without faith, love doesn’t last because there is no perseverance through tough times. Everyday the Lord is calling us to take little leaps of faith. He is doing this to see how invested and how much we desire to draw near to him. We all will fail these leaps of faith but our God extends grace abundantly. I think the same thing can be said for a romantic type of love. When we first begin we will have to trust God first and foremost that this is apart of his will. If it is then we have just begun. This will lead us down a journey of learning and growing together. There will be setbacks due to past relationships and the curve balls that life always throws at us, but they are there to make sure that our love for each other is pure and that our love together will reap rewards for the kingdom of God.  I would never married someone if I didn’t see the kingdom of God expanding because of our relationship and love for each other. This love that we have didn’t happen overnight it was a process that was found through hard work and examining God’s desires for us and our future. Not only will the kingdom of God grow but it will also show our commitment for each other. This is one of the most important things to me in a relationship. If I know that i can trust you with my life and my desires there is nothing that I would ever do to try and break our love apart. I will lead us to the ends of the earth in order to protect the love that God has given and shown us. 

Finally I want to say one last thing. Be ready for the greatest time of your life. I vow to love and lead you better then any earthly person has loved you before. I vow to take you places you have never been and show you what fun looks like. I vow to support you and be there for a hug, kiss, or shoulder to cry on. I vow to protect you and stand up for you if it means giving up my job, friends, or aspirations. I vow that our lives will only get better the older we get together. I vow that I will be the best father possible and love those kids like I have loved you. I vow to mess up and let you down but will always say I am sorry. I vow to forgive you and love you more when you mess up and let me down.

Love is a choice and when I make the choice to love you forever it will be a vow that will never be broken. In sickness and in health. Through the good times and bad. As long as God comes first, I can promise you that we are in store for the greatest experience possible.

But here I sit, alone…. with only words to describe what i desire. Someday you will come into my life and I will be able to show you these things. But until then I have one goal and one desire, To live my life for Jesus Christ and his kingdom. Some day you will join me on the quest to pursue God but until then I press forward with eyes focused on his kingdom. This is the desire of my heart and for every single Christian in this world, that we won’t get so caught up in who we marry but focus on who will bring us closer to God. He is our goal and He is our future. When we die all we have left is what we have given to God and in the end that is all that matters. It won’t matter if we are married for 5 years or 50. It won’t matter if you have $1 or $1 Million. All that will matter is how we use what God has given us to pursue Jesus Christ more and more every day and expand his kingdom. We have all fallen short of his glory and we must hold fast to his grace because without it we have no future and no hope.

Here is my prayer for every Christian. Married or single. Dating or lonely. Happy or sad,

Dear Lord,

Lead us where we can’t lead ourselves. Show us what we can’t understand ourselves. Fill us with peace and joy that surpasses all understanding. Let our lives be a sacrifice to you and you alone. You are our God and we will follow you wherever you may lead us, no matter how scary or far away you might take us. I pray that you will show us these things and give us eyes to see your vision for our lives. Our lives are Your’s and not our own. Show us opportunities to speak love and peace into the people around us. Help us to be selfless not selfish. We desire you Lord and pray that we can grow closer to you today and forevermore. We love you and thank you for your grace and mercy and we look forward to the day where we will begin worshiping you forever. We lift you high because its our heart’s desire to follow you, not because we have to. We Love you Lord. In your hold name we pray,

Amen.

Love,

Colin Post